I dont see why you have to lock this blog just cause of this .
Do you seriously think i want this to happen?
None of us wants this to happen .

You keep using the word ' misunderstanding ' .
But i think some of the things are not exactly misunderstandings .
You keep telling us to tell you when we are unhappy with you ,
Or ask us to say everything out ,
But ask yourself ,
Honestly ,
Have you told us everything?
I am sure your answer would be no .

& i seriously think you should say ' Pohee said ' , ' Sherlyn/Illene/Pohee said '
Because this might cause more ' misunderstandings '
One thing very important that you should know is ,
' Trust has to be earned , not given '
The way you put things ,
You make it seem like we are making things difficult for you .
It's not up to us whether to accept you or not .
If you didn't do anything in the first place ,
We wouldn't even have this kind of reaction .
Even if we are at fault ,
You were the one who made us likethat .
If you didn't do all these nonsense at first ,
We wouldn't dislike you ,
If we don't dislike you ,
We wouldn't have to try to accept you .
You may say i'm putting the blame on you ,
But think ,
Why do we even have to blame you?
You didn't do anything wrong?

& i heard from them that you said i wouldn't listen to you ,
I would be stubborn & won't accept whatever you say?
You dont have to deny this ,
Because i am very sure you said it .
Since you tink i'm so unreasonable ,
What's the point of writing all this hoping i would listen?
When you already ASSUME ,
When you already THINK ,
I wouldn't listen ,
I wouldn't accept what you say.
You said that when i have my own impression of you ,
I won't change it ,
No matter what you say .
You said something like this , didn't you?
You made it sound like i am really unreasonable ,
& i am really making life miserable for you ,
That's what you told them ,
You made it sound likethat ,
& they would think i 'm a really mean person .
What would Sherlyn & Illene think?
They would keep telling me that i must be nice to you etc etc ...
& in case you dont know ,
They sound as though i am the only one at fault ,
I bullied you .
& now i have to make it up to you?
This way ,
I would think that you ' brainwashed ' them .
You changed the way the think .
& you said Jasmine was sacarstic .
That would change the way they thought about Jas too .

Dont keep saying that you tried your best ,
What makes you think that we didn't try?
You ASSUMED that we didn't try at all .
So it would turn out to be our fault?
All along when you did something to make us dislike you ,
We kept quiet .
Cox we have to compromise & sacrifice , remember?
So we cannot hurt each other by saying all this .
& you wouldn't say things out if you were us .
Like the other time ,
You didn't like one of us ,
Did you say things out?
All we did was try & tolerate .
Do you think it was easy for us?

You said that i didn't give you a chance to clarify everything ,
But hello ,
They asked me to be nice to you ,
How can i be nice when i really dislike you?
I know i would scream at you if i was there ,
I didn't want to be rude ,
Plus i dont want to make it seem like i was bullying you ,
Thats why i didn't wan to go over .
&&&& ,
They told me you said you would scold me back if i screamed at you .
I was shocked when i heard this ,
I thought we are the ones that dislike you?
Or is it the other way round?
If i know you would scold me back when i talked to you ,
Do you think i would even want to talk to you?
& what makes you think we've been assuming?
You dont know how much we know .
Plus , are you sure you didn't assume at ALL?

Dont keep trying to ask me to put myself in your shoes .
Because the unhappiness we went through was much more you .
How about the other way round?
Try putting YOURSELVES in OUR shoes .
It wasn't easy for us too .

I cant believe you said ' to me , itsnot really my fault, '
' to you, i think you think its my fault. '
So we have been accusing you all the while ,
Things that we said you did ,
You didn't do it at all?
We falsely accused you?
Is that what you're trying to tell us?

' however, i think we're both in the fault '
Can you tell me what i did?

Dont keep saying it's up to me to trust/accept you ,
Because like i said ,
' Trust has to be earned , not given '
You cannot expect me to just trust you just like that ,
After so much had happened .

& i remember that face you gave when you walked past me & pohee .
Jux now , when you were going to the staff room ,
That face of yours said " I'm winning for sure "
I know you would definitely say you didnt .
I was so shocked to see that look on your face too .
Cox they said you looked sad at the gathering area .
But when you walked past us ,
That face was nothing that looked like sad .
Dont deny ,
Cox Pohee saw it too .

& fyi , i'm not the only one that dislike you now ,
You have to explain all this to Pohee as well .
She doesn't say anything doesn't mean she's okay with you .
I'm just being honest .

KwanWei .